With every tear drop that forms in her eye after an epiphany,
With every pout of confusion as to what to do next,
With every scream of anger at me not being good enough,
With every time she leaves with no intention of coming back,
With every word she goes back on,
With every slap to the face when Im down,
With every second she makes me feel worthless,
With every point Im crying my heart out and shes ignoring,
With every moment she wants to spend with everyone but me,
With every penny she takes off me and never returns,
With every instant she makes me feel like being dead is for the best,
With every realization that Im not enough and never will be,
With every intention of replacing me with someone better,
With every lie from her lips,
With every single selfish action,
With every and all the pain she causes the people I love,
With every moment Im lying in bed praying to God Ill never wake up,
With every call to the police at the time when what I need is her,
With every spiteful action she aims towards me, toward every laugh at my expense,
With every abandonment on the side of the road at the early hours of the morning,
With every condescending word,
With every forceful push into what she wants when shes power tripping,
With every insult she throws at me,
With every moment I want a mother that cares enough about me,
With every guilt trip she lays after shes hurt me,
With every smile she leaves me out of,
With every question she never asks me,
With every thing I do or say to her that she takes for granted,
With every person she chooses over me,
With every time she makes me worry to death,
With every cut so deep Ill never forget,
With every thing she blames on me which is actually her doing,
With every time she breaks my heart,
With every moment we will never have,
With every memory Ill forget,
With every bit of my heart Ill close off,
With every emotion for her that I now refuse to feel,
With every bit of adoration that will be lost,
With every part of me that will die,
With every moment Ill wish she was there,
With every painful stab to the heart at the thought of her that Ill ignore,
With every hidden tear that will fall over her,
With every word Ill never say; I adore you. I love you. I need you. Come back.
With every word I do; Goodbye Mum, take care. Be happy.
