To Amy

To Amy,
I have known girls like you all my life and I know what you can do. But just before you do to me what you have done to countless others, and what I KNOW you have had done to you, a few points to consider if you please:

1. Don't expect to love him as much I love him - nobody ever could or will.
2. Don't made love to him - I know he's thought about it I can tell by the things he says... please Amy, I couldn't bear it.
3. If you do make love to him, tell him that you love him - he'll leave you.
4. Don't hold his hand - he'll never reach for yours.
5. Don't make him laugh - that laugh, that smile, that sparkle in his eyes...they're mine.
6. Don't tempt him - he's weak
7. Know that he was everything I had and now he is gone. I'm not asking you to understand that (how could you?). Consider it. Particularly explore the idea of 'everything', and then the idea of that being taken away.
8. Don't dangle him in front of me - I know you can probably get him to hold you in public but please, please, please... don't let him.
9. Don't make him love you Amy. Don't do what I could not.
10. Don't ask me if I'm ok with this. Don't pretend it makes I difference that I'm not.
11. Don't look at me when you see me cry Amy...I've been trying so hard not to let either of you see that. You have taken everything else from me Amy. At least let me pretend to have my dignity.
12. Don't let us be in a situation where he can compare us Amy. I already know I can't measure up.

Please Amy. If all you do is read this note and chose to ignore it's content, just...... see them. Try to feel them. This is my plea. But if nothing else Amy, know this. You have just witnessed the destruction of the soul of another human being.