Pain Is

Pain is
~Pain is watching your whole world fall apart and youre just standing there not knowing where or when you went wrong
~Pain is knowing that the one person you have always looked up to thinks you will never amount to anything
~Pain is having her hit you across the face, yet all you feel is guilt because you couldnt make her happy
~Pain is finally admitting to yourself that you never will make her happy, in her eyes youll never be anything but an obstacle
~Pain is deciding to find something better, and she just stands there and watches you leave without a word of objection
~Pain is having the two most important little girls in your life think you left because you didnt love them
~Pain is watching those same beautiful little girls cry and beg you not to leave them
~Pain is having your little brother tell you that the family is just better off without you
~Pain is waiting for her to tell you shes sorry and she loves you and misses you, yet deep down you know that will never happen
~Pain is watching the one guy that ever meant anything to you walk away, and still wondering why it couldnt work
~Pain is knowing he's happier with her, and wanting so bad to be able to be happy for him
~Pain is finding out that the guy friend that always watched your back and kept you out of "too" much trouble is dead
~Pain is being left with all those things that you wanted so bad to say and not even being able to say goodbye
~Pain is not even being able to accept reality because its just so much easier to pretend
~Pain is in my everyday life, like an obstacle i have learned to overcome each and every one life throws at me
~Pain makes it harder to be happy, harder to trust, and harder to be able to just "be there"
~Pain has influenced me in so many ways
~Pain has made me the person i am today