Jail Has Taken Him For Now!!

As i taste the salt of my own tears stream down my face, i close my eyes and try to go to sleep. As i drown myself in my own tears, visions of you surround me in my mind usually the throughts of you would help me get to sleep but lately they are becoming nothing but nightmares. My pillow becomes a face washer as it's covered in the tears i have cried for you, and has turned from white to multi-coloured from the make-up that was once on my face.

Thinking for you is becoming a punishment my mind is continuously giving me, as i brake down into tears and am reminded the emptiness i felt the day you went away.

Life's to short to be unhappy, but in my eyes it's also to short to take someone away for so long.

As i hear the rain pounding down i believe it's because you are gone, as there will be no sun in my life until you are back in it.

I will refuse to say "goodbye" as when it comes to that word does not exist. i spoke to you as though you were a diary a girl would write in.

I still feel weak when i look into your eyes. thoughts of you haunt my mind as they are constantly playing in my head.

I don't understand how one person can make you feel so many different feelings all at once. All i know is i would do anything right now to cure the pain you have left me.

Left lost, alone. confused and heart broken, I'm just waiting for the day you pick up the pieces and put it back together. you hold the key to my door of happiness and right now that door is locked.

Why should i let you go?
Erase you from my mind?
When not once did you EVER fail making me feel like the happiest girl in the world.

Your smile made my day, but right now i have kissed it goodnight awaiting for the 6 months to pass of it's beauty sleep, to eventually allow me to wake up next to the face i can only dream of now!

Miss You Joel xx