I have sadness trapped within me
To hard to let go, to hard to be free
My heart wants to be happy, alive
To beat inside my chest without sorrow
I think to myself, I will be happy tomorrow
I am drugged with pills of depression
I am seduced with heavy suppression
My mind is waning, for I am fading
Into the sadness that consumes me
Into the dark, pitch blackness, surrounds me
I am still in the dark alone in the dark
My sadness strangles any happy spark
Anger within me rises against the hurt
I fight it off, but it throws me into the dirt
I cough, trying to catch my breath
To breathe in any glimpse of happiness
I lie there in the dirt breathing a heavy distress
The oxygen is like sorrowful air filling my lungs
Infecting my heart with a freezing fears
To lose my joy and forever have only tears
Is this the end? My final hope has gone away
Will happiness ever return to me, do I have to pay?
For the sadness that I have caused to others I love
Like black ink spots on a once called white dove
My heart will heal I hope, I dream
Happy is what I want to feel, I want to scream
Laughing till my face turns red and side aches
Time, such long time it takes
To be happy once more deep in my soul
For once I feel true happiness I will be whole
