Which will make me stronger, holding on or letting go?

[acrostic]

Look at me. Look me
In the eyes. Tell me what you
Feel. Take off your disguise.
Ever since this started.
Feelings keep getting hurt. You'd think I'd be numb to it
Instead, I'm just less alert.
Little to look forward to. There's a
Lack of hope to get high.
Everyday is spent
Debating if this is the beginning of our forever, or
Whether it's just a prolonged, inevitable goodbye.
I know I asked you to take your time
To think about this decision you must make.
However, my patience has run thin, I can't take it anymore. I
Love you, but I need to you make a choice, for our sake.
I know, with you, I can only take what I can get. She comes first and
Everything else comes next. Words at the tip of my tongue. Her number, ready to dial.
Shit may be said. Something might go down. But in the end I'd know, you and I were worthwhile.