Since When Was I Loved So Much

You don't what you have until it's gone,
I was there the whole time.
I was peacemaker and didn't do wrong,
You notice me now, when I start to shine.

You find out I'm going,
Now you're such a good friend.
What about when my breath was slowing,
When I was about to end.

You show me this paradise,
Of what could be if I stayed.
But it becomes obvious lies,
When you find out my mind is made.

You should been like this before,
Never given me reason to leave.
Now you try to reach my core,
But it's too late for me to believe.

When you're being so nice,
It makes me so mad.
It's not a roll of the dice,
That so many times you have made me so sad.

You're so sad you cry,
You get angry at me.
I don't understand why,
You can't let me be happy.

How dare you say how much you need me,
How much you I make you all whole.
You should have said it for no reason,
Not because I have to go.