Induce Myself

Wrung with torment
Holding back my heart
Trying not to hurt him
And remain distant and apart

Building up the frustration
No way to relieve the stress
Trying hard to keep up face
Without feeling the strain of press

Wanting to be completely honest
But I have a burden on my back
Can not relinquish the one
Without turning his heart black

Desiring everything
Though restricted due to him
Holding him close
His sense of reality so dim

I wish my head would coax my heart
Convince it to give in
Let him go and start a new
Back to my life of sin

Emotionally distraught
Confused in disarray
Should I let him go?
Or induce myself to stay