I hate myself for hurting you

I hate myself for hurting you.
I cannot stand what I put you threw.
I care for you I really do.
My love for you is deep and true.
I don't know why i did it,
it was a big mistake.
You will probably hate me for it,
and think everything I say is fake.
I cannot say enough that I am sorry
for what I did to you.
But i beg you not to leave me,
I don't know what I would do.
Because I am completely in love with you.