Im scared of people
People that stare and whisper behind backs armed with knives
Im scared of falling
For another disaster, Im trying to stay alive
I dont wanna open the door
I dont wanna look outside
You and I will never be anything greater
Than a mistake that made me cry
Im so sick of crying over you and the rest
Of everything that makes me alone at night in my bed
The strangers, they walk by, and I dont want to say hello
This world is growing older, and I dont wanna go
Im not ready to wake up and walk out with everyone else
Im not ready to be something I want to be
Cuz everything I want is too high to reach
And every person I want to be, is not anything like me
I agree with the critics
They think Im a freak
Theyre laughing at me
And who I think I can be
Im afraid to speak out
And let them hear me
Im not ready to grow old
Cuz Im still straining to breathe
In here I dont have to pretend
Im always save in my own head
The voices know I dont want to hear it
Cuz they know Ill start to fall back down again
I wish there was a way I could be all those things
I wish I wasnt so ashamed
Of the way I wanna be someday
