Confession

Wow! The pat year has been a really weird year for me from June 16th till now. I have been threw 2 relationships where one of them I screwed up totally. I fell in love with a girl I lied to her about who I was and almost everything about me. It went on for 7 months like that. We broke up and got back together on and off. I had a lot of cries, laughs, silences and everything you can think of with her. We have the greatest memories and we did almost everything we could together. We always talked for hours and hours off hand. We wrote emails and letters in the mail. Except one bad thing I lied to her about who I was and one mistake cause my whole world to come crashing down. She asked me many of times and I never came clean. My whole life was ruined when that happened. She was everything to me now each and every day I think about her everything reminds me of her but she is off on her own now and has washed away our memories while I still keep them with me. She is now with someone where all her future plans for us she can be completed with him. So remember one little mistake one little wrong move one little lie can ruin everything. Now I am with a girl named Krystle who I tried to spend each day with and be as truthful as I can so nothing happens once again but once and a while she always remind me of the girl I was with and I cant stand seeing myself with the girl I'm with now I cant stand seeing myself with anyone but the girl I was with me and Krystle broke up because i couldn't stand being with her knowing my mind was being filled with thoughts of the other girl so me and Krystle are not together and neither are me and laura i wish i could just end my life now and you know the girl i was with told me i should it would be better but i never did cause i want to see her one day and know what i missed out on and i want to know who she marries and i know shes happy with them i want to know whose last name she gets instead of mine i wanna know who holds her tight at night i wanna know just why she cant just talk to me or anything so i can tell her whats really going on till this day i am still in love with her more than anything and everyday it gets stronger and stronger i just wish she could overlook the past because I'm in love with her and i always will be nothing will change that and no one but her could make me happier I LOVE YOU LAURA PLEASE JUST LISTEN!! Remember the times we stayed at home just talking on the phone Remember the time we spent news year together and then gave each other a new years kiss for the night. Remember when you told me you wished for nothing for Ur birthday because u had all you needed remember we neither of us could sit still because we were so nervous the first time we talked. Remember the bed time stories i use to read you remember the late night phone calls and falling asleep wishing we were in each others arms. Remember the nicknames that we both gave each other. Remember all the times i said baby. Please don't let the memories go have them in Ur heart and always know that you mean more than anything to me.