Sad Sarcasm (Please Come Back)

It's been a while now,
And I'm trying to lock up my feelings-
It's harder than I thought possible,
I won't let them control me- they aren't allowed.

But with each note that teases my ear,
I find that I am ruthlessly
Exposing each raw fear.

Winter is lashing at my eyes-
Season of hellos, and only
Half-intended goodbyes.
Memories are killing me, killing me, killing me...

They're torturing my brain,
And it's no surprise
That I've cracked under all this strain.

But it's been so long, it's hard to believe;
Oh, seeing your smile again would bring
Me such glorious relief.

Dimly lit rooms and sarcastic remarks-
If I had known how painful
This adventure would be, I'd never have embarked.

Too much good never really works out for me;
All the smiles have been crushed,
And now I'm left crawling, tear stained, through the debris.

Just one song and the pain clicked back in place,
The only thing I want right now is to kiss your face.
Because these memorise are killing me, killing me, killing me...

Goddamnit, come back.
Please.
Please.