I Dont Want Anymore Memories!

I don't want anymore memories dad!

Don't you understand?
Once i saw what you had become, i was afraid
Not wanted to hurt anymore
Tear after tear I'd cry, but you were still on my mind

What was i suppost to do? I was only a little frightened kid
As i sat up at night. I would think how great it would be
Never hurting, loving, living, and never having you
Tears night after night i would cry

And then you came home drunk and high
Never normally doing what you did?
Yes you would. You would hit me and mom over and over
Me wanting to runaway. mom yelling for me to leave
Outside i could hear yelling and mom screaming
Running from the monster!
Every night i would wish my dad would never come back!

Memories i never wanted is what memories i have
Eventually the monster came back
Memories he said he didn't mean
Over time i noticed certain things
Returning time wont help. He still drinks and do drugs
I don't want memories with a father like that!
Every time i see the monster i remember that night
So every night i sit up in bed wondering how it would be without him.