When I was little Barbie's were my world...fourteen years later I'm interested in vampires and horror movies.When people say things change they know what their talking about.I'm different now than from how I was before(if u know me your probably thinking yea no s**t)..I spend most of my time reading vampire fairy tales and wishing they were real..yea u think I'm some wanna be freak who just lives in this fantasy world thinking that I'm a bloodsucker.. well let me clear u up on that shall we..reality is b***h and I know it you don't have to shove it in my face.I know reality is life and all we can do is dream and try to succeed what our dreams are if they exist.Why I'm writing this i don't know i just am..maybe so people would stop judging me or maybe because i feel like it and i don't give 2 s**ts what you think.My parents have been divorced since i was 4 and i have 2 brothers that are married and the oldest has 2 wonderful kids that i love dearly.I don't know why i am the dark sorta person i am today..even I'm trying to put the pieces together which normally i just go with the flow.My moms remarried and her husband is working a million miles away and shes mostly alone.I love her so much for what shes done for me.My dad...i love him 2,but there isn't much to say there.I'm trying to be strong and to succeed in life to make my mom happy.It's funny how happiness is only a few moments and sadness is almost an eternity.I've been in love,I've been hurt,I've felt happiness,I've felt sadness,I've done bad things,I've done good things..who hasn't and yet people have the nerve to put other people down like they themselves haven't done ANYTHING wrong.Most people just put others or themselves down because they believe nothing is worth it anymore for many reasons..truth is every min. of someones life is worth it.No matter how bad or good things are they always take a turn and life is even worth it just to feel happy even if for only a few seconds.People out their may have it worst,but sometimes the pain they feel feels like the worst thing that has ever happened.By this point your probably thinking oh she just wants people to feel sorry for or whatever and my answer to that is i don't give a damn what u or anyone else thinks and if u think this is bull then y r u still reading this.I've been called a b***h and other worst things,but who hasn't.I'm a VERY complicated person you'll know that after you spend a few min. with me.I've had many friends..some that let me down and some that stuck with me..I'm not saying I'm the best I'm just saying that u cant always trust someone..i guess.The friends i have now are the best I've ever had.No I'm not emo or whatever label u think i am..yes i do call myself a punk rocker,but thats just a label..what i am doesn't have a name i can only say it's me..I'm me and will always be me.I honestly don't know why I'm writing this i just am deal with it!!I think I'm done so far,but life..life isn't..
