A Day to Be Alone

I glance up at the ceiling
And disconnect the phone
Close myself in darkness
Its my day to be alone

And these tears i cry are silent
So i'll just let them go
I'll think about the pain
But nobody could know

How memories of days i missed
And the friends that are now gone
All the lovers I shot down
Keep me going on

The scars have their death grip
And they wont go away
Though the thirst for more subsides
The past is still on display

Good thing no one looks
Good thing no one sees
Beyond the smile that i paste
That my heart continues to freeze

But something keeps it warm
Something deep inside
Though i find it hard to understand
Its easier now to hide

Well i don't want him to know
That i can never change
I'm worn down to the floor
And i find it less than strange

That your hand has abandoned me
But i wont look up and check
The truth would tighten the noose
You loosely placed around my neck

And I'm too scared to die
Even more afraid to live
So easily can i forget
But you refuse to forgive

Stuck in the middle
Of a 4 way road
An offering to hit
Just watch me explode

Like fireworks ill fly
My, how much I've grown
But soon I'll fade away again
Another day to be alone