Do you know what you do to me?

Do you know what you do to me?
Of course not, you do not see
The emotion in my eyes or hear
The emotion in my voice
I think of you and all you put me through
Thats when I lose control
And I break down
You broke my heart once before
I swore I was done with you forever
I was doing great without you
And your mixture of truth and lies
But out of the unknown you came back
And I vowed I would never let you do
What you did that week long ago
At first I didn't want anything to do with you
And was just another jerk to you
Like your current and previous boyfriends
It took months and months for you
To remove every brick I laid in place
Now what do I have with you
Besides a pile of bricks and this scarred heart of mine
Its been hard for me
To truly know your intentions
And why do you do the things you do
You have no idea what you do to me
And what effects you have on my heart
That has a scar of your name
Over time you have done it again
I love what you have done
I hate what you have done
Are you blind because it is hard to miss?
All the feelings I have for you
From every little word you say
To ever action you perform
You make my heart toss and turn
Reopening scars I wanted to keep shut
And forget they were even there
I want to tell you everything
That is running through my heart and mind
But how do I know how you feel about me
Or how you even think of me
Do you notice how we act when we are together?
Do you remember all the little things you say?
Do you truly mean and believe in the words you say to me
How is it that you can not see
How I treat you compared to the others you have dated
I sit here and wonder
What is going through your head?
Are you afraid of something great happening to you?
Do you have a fear of what people will say or do?
Do you only view me as just another friend?
Or is it something completely oblivious to me
Whatever your rhyme or reason
You should know
I have liked you
For far too long to let it go unsaid
Are you beginning to see?
What you have done to me
Is it just me or do you notice it to?
How well we fit together
And how we laugh as often as we do
From day one I could be myself with you
No lying or pretending was required
Only doubts and fears clouded my mind
Of preconceived notions about you and I
At this every moment I still remember when
I fell for you and also that same moment
Where my heart broke and I stated that vow
But time has come and gone
And lessons I have learned are few
But ever since you stormed back into my life
Ive been holding back my feelings for you
So I don't crash and burn like I did before
Yet time and time again
I just want to let go and tell you how I feel and see where we go
I feel there is so much we leave unspoken
For we are both wondering, fearing, doubting
Is it becoming clear what you do tot me?
I find myself just laying in bed at night
Becoming overcome by frustration
Frustration of what you do
All your words coming back to my mind
And I can not understand why
Why you keep him around
If everything you say about him and you is true
Why drag things on if stormy skies are all around
Why wont you wake from your sleep?
And see what life has to offer
As well as this prince who is right in front of you
Getting lost in all your wonder
I can not imagine what your excuse must be
To not take my hand and venture into a land
Where you become my princess through and through
Yet for some strange reason
You will not reach out and take my hand
You are being held back
By someone you have given another chance to
But please take a trip down memory lane
And notice all the wrongs he has done
And all the chances he has had
Some people deserve more than just one chance
But others only get one
I have given you another chance
And am willing to give you more
Is it becoming clear what you do to me?
You have not changed me into someone I am not
But you have caused me to smile about any situation life throws my way
Do you even realize what I know and notice about you?
How cute you look when you concentrate on whats displayed on your computer screen
Or the way you make me feel like a kid again
When you eat on the floor and when you do eat on the floor
Do you notice the smile that comes to my face?
And how adorable you are
Or even the fickleness that you have
With anyone else I become easily annoyed
But when it comes to you and your fickleness
I am the least bit annoyed
For it actually puts a smile on my face
Even though you sometimes make me feel like I'm not important
And just another friend you can throw around
Do you know what it is you do to me?
Sometimes I wonder just what I am to you
Sometimes I wonder just what I mean to you
I feel like I am just your daytime boyfriend and flirt
And once the sun sets
And day turns to night
I become just another person to you
And you toss me aside
Once Friday roles around you turn away
And face the person who you are actually dating
While you leave me here all alone
Maybe you have grown to believe
That something is better than nothing
But don't you see that his something is nothing
And who also gives you too little
You have never expected anything more
For you have been accustomed to accept scraps thrown to you
From everyone else
But with me you can experience so much more
Maybe you are thinking you don't deserve someone like me
But doesn't every prince have a princess
Who stands by his side and whom he can spoil
And not just with gifts of gold or silver or beautiful flowers
But also with loyalty and understanding
As well as offering comfort
And caring day and night
What you may not realize is I may not deserve someone like you
But doesn't every princess have a prince
Who protects her from harm and brings out the best in her
A prince who makes her laugh and smile ear to ear
As well as always giving you a shoulder to cry on and a hand to hold
Are you beginning to see what you mean to me
Don't you want someone who will be by your side through anything
Someone who is there to support and encourage you and all that you do
Someone that will go out of there way to do any task
No matter how simple or complex it may be
Someone who is caring and would never harm you
Someone who knows what you value in your life
Someone who will fight for you
Not just with his fists but with his words and actions
Someone who respects you for your mind and the thoughts you portray
So I am letting you know
What you do to me
You put butterflies in my stomach
Every time I see you
You put a smile on my face like no one else can
You make me treasure every second I spend with you
And now within these closing lines Ive got a secret to tell
I have had a crush upon you for a long time know
And this poem has become my life story
Of all that you do to me
And now that you know
Everything in my mind and heart
That I have wanted to say
I leave you with one last remark
In which you must make a choice
Me
Or
Him