Anger Bcus of JOhn [Part 2]

Dear John,

What is your problem, what is your deal?
Why is loneliness, stabbing, and hurt I feel?
How can you just walk away?
How can you have nothing to say?

Why is it every time I try, you dont budge
Like your holding back a grudge?
Why dont you just say what is on your mind?
Why cant you be the first to call this time?

Why do I have to put a wall up, to protect
Why is your heart so hard to dissect?
What happened to the sweet blonde hair, blue eyed boy I once knew
What happened to you?

Im not saying sorry for something I never did, I wont
Do you see the caring heart warming guy, because I dont
I hate the new person you have become, a selfish man
Why do you keep leaving again and again

Its like you only come to satisfy us
Not yourself, so what happened to that passionate friendship lust?
You once felt
Is that fire gone, has it burned out?
Can you hear me, stop ignoring me, do I need to shout?

Is this what you want, to raise my voice?
Is this going to be an easy or hard choice?
I want the old john back, I dont want you to keep ignoring reality
Something I thought I would never feel, NO PITY, sadly

I dont care if you dont come around anymore
I no longer wish for you to walk through my door
I no longer have the urge to satisfy you
So many horrible thoughts I want to express to you

Why cant you stand up, on your own two feet
Why do you sit on the ground, like that is your permanent seat
Your going to be gone within a year
Some times if I think hard enough, yeah there are tears

But Im all dried up, you sucked the life out, like a prune
Hopefully something will come to you soon
Hopefully you will realize what you have done
Hope you and your other friends have fun

There is one thing I do want to say
I do really want to see you on your graduating day
To give you something that will tell you all
Maybe after then I will not be the only one to fall

Maybe as you read my letter, you will feel bad
As you look back, at the memories, I hope you get sad
Because youre the one who burned then, and locked them away
Youre the one who made all our smiles fade

I hope your happy, because soon this too will be in the past
No matter how much pain you soon will feel, it wont last
Because nothing can amount to what weve all been through
We, the group, by the way, now doesnt include you