Love, or Suicide?

Working day to day,
Trying to get by,
Making a living,
Trying not to cry.

Without giving up,
I stand here alone,
Hearing her voice,
Imagining it is the perfect tone.

Wondering, "what if,"
Problems had not went wrong?
Crying hysterically,
To this one sad song.

Reading over letters,
Believing they are true,
Creating mental images
Of maybe starting new.

Worrying where she may be,
This would not be my way.
There would be no tears,
Everything would be ok.

Staring at the stars,
It only hurts more.
I ripped up the notes,
And cried as they tore.

Waving her down,
I just want to speak.
Hearing that voice,
It makes me so weak.

Dealing with my emotions,
Knowing they won't leave.
I'm driving in my car,
I began to weave.

Imagining what will happen next
Is my minds only thought,
Flashing lights are all around,
I think that I have been caught.

Little did anyone grasp,
I wanted to forget.
Drinking the bottle
I thought, would help me quit.

Slowly shutting my eyes,
I picture her face.
Than, releasing the steering wheel,
I drove at a fast pace.

Promises are often broken.
I wish it were not that way.
For caring so deeply,
Pain is the price to pay.

Failing to win her heart,
I had nothing to lend.
I knew this day would come,
It was time for life to end.

Rethinking this decision,
Wishing for tomorrow,
I knew it would be the same.
My heart can not handle anymore sorrow.

It happened so fast.
I did what felt right.
Forcing the gas.
Still ignoring all of the light.

Crashing into the river,
I held the bottle and took one last sip.
Pretending it could be worse,
I knew this was the end of my trip.

Water rushed, to shut my lungs.
I almost felt regret.
It is too late to choose.
I now had myself set.

Taking in my final breath,
I could now forget forever.
I know, "what might have been?"
Will now, be never.

My time is here.
This is my last goodbye.
Memories were lingering.
She was nothing but a lie.

She may notice I am gone,
But I am not in her way.
This is a selfish act,
I have nothing left to say.

Forget who I am.
Remember who I was.
Alcohol is mind changing.
I had felt more than a buzz.

I died for love.
There was no were to go.
That bridge was so high,
But I felt so low.