Staring out the window,
I picture her face.
Stars are in the sky.
They take me back to that place.
It has not been long,
Though it still on mind.
Living for today,
I am trying to be kind.
It hurts to let go,
For she was everything I had.
Memories will fade.
This makes me so sad.
Sleep is hard to capture,
When I lie in bed and think,
“Maybe tomorrow will be different,
But every new day, I just sink.â€
Tomorrow seems so distant,
The future is not seen.
Why am I still here?
I am only a teen.
My life has not been lived,
But I have lost all I have known.
What I would do,
If she only called my phone?
She was not Cinderella.
I was no Prince.
She walked away from me.
I have not seen her since.
The smell of her hair lingers.
Her touch was utterly amazing.
It has been too long.
I have been doing nothing but dazing.
I write out a plan,
Of how tomorrow will be.
You and I know,
And she will soon see.
Morning arrives.
Breakfast was made.
I scramble to work.
And just to get paid.
My shift was over,
And it had come quick.
I walk to the bank.
I start to feel sick.
I arrive at my house.
I kiss my mom and hug my dad.
I kept a straight face,
They knew nothing; not a tad.
Mom is cooking dinner,
But I am going out.
A note is in the bathroom.
Mom wishes I would not pout.
Everyone saw this coming,
But they had no clue.
They would never imagine,
This is something I would do.
There is no point without her.
I can not go on like this.
So I start my engine,
And I blow one last kiss.
Tears roll down my cheeks.
Reality clicks in.
I have to do this.
I know it is a sin.
I sit on the rocks,
And glance at my car.
I look down,
And see nothing but black tar.
I reach in my pocket,
And pull out my knife.
I raise my hand.
Realizing this is the end of my life.
My drop is far.
It will cut me deep.
But I will no longer remember.
I will now be asleep.
They will find out tomorrow,
Or maybe tonight.
But it will be too late.
I will be out of sight.
In my letter,
They will see,
What I felt,
And what was key.
Mom, you never let me down.
I will miss you the most.
I am growing up now,
But this time I overdosed.
Dad you were always near.
I will never follow your light.
I was still growing up,
I am just doing what feels right.
Tell her that I never loved,
Like I had loved her.
Let her peak in my room,
She will see what we were.
Only she holds my key,
To my bedroom door.
She has my heart,
But she left it to pour.
It is decorated with memories,
The ones I could not let go of.
There is a note just for her.
It is hidden beneath out glass dove.
Do not live like me.
My life was dull.
Live happy and strong.
Know that I love you all.
(his note to her)
I want you to know,
You had my entire heart.
I completely fell apart.
I am sorry for any wrongs.
I tried to do right.
Our first kiss was two years ago,
And it was on this very night.
I want you to know,
You had my entire heart,
And now we are completely apart.
P.S. My selfish act will leave you hungry.
I am no longer here.
My photographs will leave you breathless,
Especially in those that you appear.
