My heart is aching

My heart is aching
i feel that as everyday goes by you think of her
i know you do
i know you cant help but wonder how shes doing and how shes living
My heart is aching knowing that i will never be her therefore,
not have their approval
love should matter
it obviously didn't work out for a reason
but they cant seem to get it
My heart is aching because i don't know if you love me like i love you
you say it but does it mean anything?
When you say it,you say it as if it were a chore.
I wont be her or have her purity but i did give you my love,my life,my devotion,my everything
My heart is aching because i feel like i sacrificed a lot yet you don't see it
you only see me not being who you think i should be
I don't know what to think anymore
i don't believe in divorce
my heart is aching because you loved her more than you love me
my heart is aching because i know I'm hurting you as you read this
but it needs to be heard
i cant hold it in
i cant
my heart is aching!