Sort of dieing

I'm sort of dieing,
Sort of losing my mind,
Slowly falling,
Spiraling out of control.

Falling down,
Losing control,
Lost my self again,
I'm dieing because I've lost myself.

I'm dieing in plain sight,
I hide behind a smile,
I show people my false side,
My "happiness" isn't real.

What can I do,
To make my self real,
To make my self happy,
To make my self live.