Is it a dream or not?

Is it a dream or not seeing your face at night,talking to you midnight?

hugging you arms and kissing your face.

seeing yor mails in tears, remebering every day past years.

knowing every one could reach you, while i could not i fear you.

hearing your voice in my ears as if we are one not parts in years....

leaving you in my dream and can not catch you in my real.

jealousy is killing me ,fantasy is letting me cry in my heart not knowing to know what you are thinking of and whom would you love.

is it a dream or not ???????