Tear Stained Pillows

Every night as I lay down to sleep
I try so hard for my tears to keep.

As I feel the open space around me
Without the presence of your touch,
My heart breaks, and I stifle a cry,
thinking of the man I miss so much.

And just like they're in a race,
Tears start rolling down my face.

My throat begins to thicken and it starts to well,
My efforts to keep it together is destroyed,
with no avail.

Tonight is no different
like all nights the same,
I bury my face in my pillow,
and let the tears fall like rain.

I love you
I miss you
I want so badly for things to be like before,
to be with you instead of lying here,
knowing that you don't care about me anymore.

Finally somewhere through it all,
I fall asleep as my last tear falls.
Feeling pathetic, and at an all time low,
hugging the only thing I have left of us:
My tear stained pillows.