Dear uncle carlo,
how u doin wif tha angels me im not 2 good..
is u lookin after my paddy the way u said u would..
coz u no his only new n not sure the way angels live..
out of everything u do thats 1 thing u can give..
advice on wat 2 do n how 2 treat ppl up above..
make sure u give him all my love..
i stil cant dind away 2 let the 2 of u go..
im stil hurting and crying inside it jus doesnt show..
i cover it up n hold bak my tears..
it feels as though use hav been gone 4 so many yrs..
i feel like there is no use of moving or breathing anymore..
ive felt lifeless sionce u 2 went through heavens door..
2 of the main easons i wanna die is u n paddy..
it jus feels so hard 2 try n b happy..
tha reason i keep everything in is coz i wanaa b strong..
i feel as though me bein upset is totally wrong..
i no there r ppl hurtin jus as much coz im close 2 them..
1 of tha ppl im stayin strong 4 is my bootiful Em..
i love her so much n wanna b there 4 her i really do..
coz i no shes finding it impossible 2 get through..
i no u wont get this but i hope u wil find away 2 read it n reply somehow..
i h8 doing this but its time 4 me 2 go now..
ill sit up n wait 4 use 2nite n pray..
pray that use'll come bak n tel me everything wil b ok..
so hopefully ill c u n paddy soon ill b crying on my bed..
PLZ try n get here there r so many things that hav been left un said..
well i LOVE u 2 so much n ill wait 4eva if i hav 2..
i jus wanna hear ur voices again wat do i hav 2 do..
so goodbye 4 now use'll always b in my heart..
right where use hav been from the very start..
Love Tay
