Composition

Crying myself to sleep in the dark.
Twisting and turning,
thrashing under the sheets.
I don't want to miss you.

Clutching the red silk pillow,
trying to smother my crys.
I don't want to hear my pain.

Breathing deeply,unsteadily.
Tears spilling down my cheeks,
soaking the pillow.
I don't want to need you.

Legs at my chest,
arms over my head,
crying silently now.
I don't want to feel anymore.

What do i wait for?