My mind is at war with my heart.
My heart pleads to just love once more.
To allow the chance to be loved in return.
Whilst my mind contends that I am better off without.
Without the ache that flows through my veins.
Without the possibility of another heartbreak.
Without the expectations that follow suit.
That toy with my emotions every jerk my heart endures.
Paralysis takes over as argument continues.
I can't move. I can't speak. I don't know what to do.
For what else but to plead with the universe for answers.
For questions never daring to part from my lips.
Let me feel the caress of someone who truly cares.
Let me hear joyous laughter and love-sick conversations.
Let me see a thriving future where happiness is not fleeting.
Stop the deprivation, for I can longer bare.
Again. I can feel it.
My heart carelessly being broken into two pieces,.
Again. I can hear it.
The sound a heart shattering.
Again. I saw it.
My heart being thrown to one side.
Paralysis has ceased momentarily
For at this point reconciliation seems distant.
Whilst peace of mind is far from near.
And although the fight pauses, the war trudges on.
