I see me

As I lay alone and see right through myself
I saw a stranger that looks back at me
I do not recognize nor heard of her
She tells me things I seek to differ
I could be a friend to you
Could even lend a listening ear
Gave thoughtful comments
But what is it I am after?
I lost a part of me I thought I had
Went missing and never to come back
Strength is my fortress, in my sleep, in my dreams
Vague reality is what I see and believe
I thought I knew
I did know
It’s not just that
I trust and follow
I’m all different and great
My smile is never fake
I lied and cried
In my nights, alone inside
Have I ever wondered why
Things always changed
I never decide on it
But change is what I crave
I give up and lost
I’m sorry I fall
I shouldn’t feel so
So tell me, what are those for?
Life is unpredictable
Why did I even bother?
If I don’t, think I’ll be here?
Think about your wishes
You might just be living it
Give it a thought
Maybe you should not