Longing

I was once beautiful.
I was once funny.
I was once intelligent.
I was once in love.

I am no longer beautiful.
I am no longer funny.
I am no longer intelligent.
I am now longer in love.

I am not bitter.
I am content.
I am not angry.
I am content.
I am not disappointed.
I am content.
I am not heartbroken.
I am content.

I am…
I am alive.
I am breathing,

My heart is beating,
My blood is running through my veins.
My eyes are blinking,
My lungs are breathing.
My brain is functioning.
My hair is growing.

I am emotionless.
I am nothing to my own self.
I am nothing of what I once was.
I am no longer up nor down.
I am.

I long to be the girl sitting in English class day dreaming of better things

I long to be the most beautiful in the world.
I long to be the funniest around.
I long to be the smartest in my school.
I long to be madly in love.

But all I am is longing now.
I am none of these things,.
I am only longing.