A new beginning??

Fear of Tomorrow
A little anxious maybe?
Pain or more sorrow?
Or merely a new beginning for me

Of what i made myself believe to be
A cold insensitive nightmare
Actually surrendered and opened up to me
A shining bloom of a gem so rare

I used to dream and cry
Remember whom I once used to be
I would look at my resemblance and wonder why
God would create a creature such as me

I knew not what i know now
That this existence has shaped my being
And i no longer wonder HOW
Would my faith have been without my innocence diminishing?

I never imagined tears so hard
Wounds in my heart never to heal
With my love imprisoned and barred
And once nothing to live by but fear

Tomorrow shines a new light
Today is full of surprises
I straddle forward with all my might
With a new face of hope and kindness

The hope of tomorrow
Truly shines a light like no rest
Where once existed only sorrow
I think i just might now deserve the best

I am scared to keep going
I am anxious to move on
Dreams and goals now flowing
What if something were to go wrong?

I will be strong
I will have faith
Though the journey proves long
My fortune is already made