Damaged

The pain shot through me like fire
My eyes swollen, blood everywhere
The consequences of trust so dire
Don't know what happened, a thought i couldn't bare

He took the only thing i called my own
He just wouldn't listen
He left me all alone
He took it without it being given

I cried relentlessly, asking God why?
Never did i dream the worst was still coming
That time of the month, it just passed me by
.......A whole new toxic beginning

They made me listen, a faint heart beat away
They made me watch him, in forming
The being inside me would sway
Oh God why am i still living??

I'm forced to make the decision
Its time to bid farewell
Innocence no longer in question
Will this decision send me to hell?

Its done, its over, its behind me
My soul empty, my heart black
I ask God why he chose me?
A crime of trust, I would take it all back

Not a day goes by that it leaves me
Not a night I'm not held captive by dreams
Why wont the memories fade and let me be
I'm breaking and no one hears me scream