Scarred Innocence

Back then I couldn't tell you,
That the curtains soon would close,
While my body slowly withers,
And my love for you still grows,
Back then I couldn't face the truth,
That you I soon would lose,
So I kept my silent covenant,
And told you not the news,
The months have dragged by slowly,
Each day with yet more pain,
But knowing that you're living,
Is all that keeps me sane,
I could not tell you what I face,
For you it was too much,
I'd watch you recoil away from me,
When my dying skin you'd touch,
But now I'm on my deathbed,
And for me it is too late,
I wish that I had told you,
Too long did I wait,
I can't tell you how I love you,
I cannot make you see,
But now I realise silence,
Has hurt you more than me,
I forgot before you told me,
The only victim is not I,
I forgot that you're the only one,
Who has to say Goodbye,
I'm sorry I couldn't tell you,
I'm sorry it was too hard,
I wish I wasn't leaving you,
With your perfect innocence scarred,
Back then I couldn't tell you,
But now I will speak true,
Remember this my darling,
Forever, I love you.