Forever

I am numb to the pain In my life
Realization only brings me heartache
Does facing the problems In my relationship save It
Or uncover how unstable it really is.

So many times I have tried to speak
Knowing the outcome to be disastrous
He could flee at such strong feelings
Out of fear that they are mutual.

The emotions I feel confuse me
They contradict themselves In every way
When you give up everything to someone
They Forever have the pleasure of knowing this.

If I let him know the true me
I could end up being crushed
Crushed by how vulnerable I become
By how much he'll take me for granted.

I am such a gentle soul
People can bring so much strain to my life
My heart Is Forever broken
And I am always to blame for that.

I have been taught so many lessons
Knowing they were learned with great risk
They will never be regretted
I am Forever being misshaped.

The New