I stopped caring a while back...

...I stopped caring a while back
about everything, somehow.
but, I totally regret it
and I'm paying for it now.

this person that I am now...
this person isn't me.
like, I just can't explain it.
this isn't how I'm supposed to be

I really feel like...I just don't give a shit
and sometimes I don't even wanna move,
don't even wanna breathe
may sound sad, but its true.

and I'm so behind in school.
you know, I purposley failed
and at first when it happened
I was like "f u c k it, oh well"

but I cry about it now
and I just...I don't know
and it's sad cause I was smart.
I guess I threw that away though.

but I wasn't one of those people...
someone who just didn't care.
and I know I did this to myself but
God, it just doesn't seem fair.

...I dont know