How I am

How I an

Well this life is pointless. Now I am very defenseless and I donâ??t know how to take it. As the weeks go by I feel more and more, sadder and as the days go by I feel weaker. As the hours pass, so do all my laughs. At home things are turning into a nightmare, thatâ??s something I just canâ??t bare. I canâ??t find a way to make things right, things are gonna turn into fights. Thereâ??s no way to stop things from happening, I shouldâ??ve saw things coming. I miss all my friends, itâ??s hard not seeing them anymore, and itâ??s hard not to pretend. I got my heartbroken and I donâ??t know to fix it. Someone put a blade through it. Now I have to fix my wound, hopefully soon. I canâ??t stop thinking about him, I wish I hated him. But my heart doesnâ??t let me; I wish heâ??s suffering like me. I canâ??t believe what he did, that I will never forgive. Sometimes I wish I could be in his arms but other times I wish he was gone. I tried everything to keep our relationship growing, but then that would stop me going. I regret falling in love with him other times I think how my life would be without him. Itâ??s so hard forgetting about him, I swear someday I want to kill him. No one knows what it feels like loving someone thatâ??s in a rush to throw them away. How can he be so far away from me but at the same time I feel his so close and so deep inside me. I look back at the times we were together, the good and the bad. It just makes me sad. Looking at the pictures, letters, and memories make me want to erase them forever, but I donâ??t know how long it will take for me to forget about him hopefully sooner than never. All the things he hide from me and made me see heâ??s so hard to believe. But I usually say FORGIVE AND FORGET AND NEVER REGRET. But this time itâ??s time to not FORGIVE and to FORGET and to REGRET.