It just hurts doesnt it..luv !!
i feel so devastatd...its al cmin apart...
i stare into the empty heavens ...feelin so impassive...blank is my mind..a lonely tear traipsin down my cheek..
i dnt deserve this...he doesnt deserve this..
i ws jus abt to tel him dat i love him...
n a moment before tht he tels me hes dying...
for a moment i thought he was kiddin me...
only i wish he was...
i wished i was dreamin...n i so wanted to wake up an put it all behind me...
only i was wrong...
it was right thr ...shovin reality into my face...
sleepless nights followed the days i cried myself crazy..
al l b left with is his memories...n yet he doesnt kno i love him..
is there a point in tellin him?...it wud probably make departure harder 4 both of us...or wud he shrink away frm me if he knew...
these questns lay unanswered...m too scared to hear the answers anyway..
he ws dyin of some goddamn disease 4 vch there ws no cure..
but i guess i died inside far too early thn him !!
