Awww hunni, this broke my heart to read, I felt your deep pain and it brought tears to my eyes. I loved this part:

Tonight I cut in your honor
Tightly holding that blade
Your usually the one to help me
But tonight I cant be saved

So few lines so full of pain and emotions, I loved it and it was easy for me to relate. I just hope you feel better hun, you know you can talk to me always

Love you