I have so many things on my mind.
So many things i worry about things that are important
for the base structure of my life.
yet i ignore them for the fact that its all been covered by a unmovable shadow.
A shadow i cant get rid of, simple because i don't want to.
A shadow of which i need to be complete, but yet its a shadow for another person.
I know who my shadow is.
She's the one who can see my pain, my sorrow.
But yet breaks my heart when all i see in return is a simple outline.
She knows my whole life story because i took her on the journey with me.
But breaks my heart when her life rid has only one seat.
For my shadow can see every inch of dark or bright light with in me, yet my shadow is just a blacked out space to me.
And it truly feels like i am just communicating to a wall when explaining myself to her.
my thoughts on how to get out of this state of mind that i have fallen into. Its not as simply as one would think.
Its the one where you drop it and forget about every thing, but how do i do that when every thought, every memory links up with what i can never have.
i could just end it all, quite simple but consequences are horrific, parents sister brother and ever worse MY SHADOW, where will she go when there is nothing to cast. What will happen when i am gone? will she loose herself or find a substitute.
What if i chased my shadow, thing is you shadow is always 2 steps a head of you...
My shadow is always around when its bright but yet that when i see her as a black cast of nothing.
But when its dark and you cant see her,
You know she is there and will lead to the light but in the light she hides in your image, but in the dark she cant hide.
So i ask myself do i want to see the light or not???
