A new me

I got to be the stupidest Tich on earth
To think that this nigga was the one for me
Right for me
I mean what the hell was i thinking
I just had to find out did he change
did he remain the same,
do he even remember my name
I just had to see if the chemistry was still thee
I had to see if the love was still in the air
And it wasn't there
he didn't change, he barely even new my name
It's a shame, my curiosity got the best of me
My curiosity destroyed me
My hart, my soul, my love, my faith, my bucking joy
There all gone, evaporated like water
The sun beamed down on my soul and dryed it up
I don't even know if I can find joy again
It feels as if everything is gone
I feel empty inside, all because all my feelings has died
I cant cry no more, cant wine no more
I am changed, I will never again feel pain
No matter what you say I will never care
My morals are gone
I am bitter
I hate love and pleasure
Ir's all about me now
Dang look how this sound
Like a lost soul, shattered hart
A bucking Like I will now START