The love and the care caress my soul
I long for being whole
Wait,this is too strong
I can't wait for so long
Love was never a strong point in my life
I used love in the blade of the knife
The needles from mothers drawer
The blood from my wrist would pour
Until I felt this extreme high
This feeling made me wonder if I would die
Sitting alone in the corner on the bathroom floor
I said to myself I cant do this anymore
Cutting deeper in my wrists
Saying to myself "I do not want to exist"
I was a mistake and I don't belong
Singing the lyrics of my favorite song
I feel the hate and see the light
Death for me is right in sight
I feel abandoned because I was left behind
Why couldn't my real mother love me and be kind
Instead she left me not knowing who she is
She left me here without a kiss
She left me here wondering who she is
She just left me for someone else to love
Why was I really sent from up above
Did the so called god put me here to suffer in pain
Is this some kind of evil game
Everyday is hell for me to live
Some kindness do you want to give
Suddenly I wake up from this nightmare
I look in the mirror and stare
Who is she and what has she done with the old me....
I can not see...
Past the new me...
I want to be...
The old me...
But this is how I have changed
I can not make my life rearrange
So kiss me softly and tell me you'll be there
Tell me you'll be here and you'll care
Because I feel so alone and it hurts me so bad
I feel so depressed and sad
Take away my fears and pain
I'm walking down this lonely lane...
