Jeremy

Dear Boy,

You may not understand this,
I'm not sure if I do
But I'm writing you this letter
To finally tell the truth.

You were everything to me,
And I couldn't ask for more
But my heart broke into pieces
When you first walked out my door

I cried for months
And sometimes I still do
The pain comes with the memory
The reality of losing you.

I never thought it'd happen
You'd leave me once again
I'm not prepared at all
This thought won't comprehend

You treated me so good
You always seemed to care
I'd be a wreck without you
This just isn't fair

I'd do anything to keep you
As tears stream down my face
I can't stand to be without you
I can't handle this place

Your my hope when I lose faith
Your my sanity when life's bad
Your my future when I give up
My happiness when I'm sad

You mean more to me than anyone
Though this I probably don't show
But I'm scared to get too close
To let you really know

But now I'm not so scared
To tell you how I feel
So here it goes, I hope I can
God this is so unreal..

First off, I miss you everyday
Even though you're here
Since the first time you left me,
I never let go of that fear.

The fear that it'd happen again
And now I see that its true
Another thing I wanna say
Is I've always loved you.

You were the first boy I trusted
The first one to make me smile
The first one that made me think
It was worth it all the while

I'm sorry, I have to go now.
The tears are too much to compel
Sincerely, the one who loves you
But was too afraid to tell.