Strange experience...

It's late.
I know I should sleep.
(Will it happen again?)

Reluctantly, I close my eyes.
Darkness surrounds me.
(I'm afraid. I think I'm afraid...)

My breathing slows.
The familiar feeling in my head starts...
(No! Not again!)

I sit up!
No. Not tonight.
(Why can't I just sleep peacefully?)

Slowly, I lie down again.
My head goes numb.
(Okay, just relax... )

Its happening again...
My body goes still, I can't move...
(Just let it happen. But I'm afraid!)

I open my eyes, its so dark.
I'm not where I should be...
(what if something jumps in while I'm not there? Go back!)

I shake myself awake.
My heart is sprinting. Its morning.
(...was it just a dream?)