Always want what cannot have

I was never special
A plain and average Joe
No one ever looked my way
My profile I kept down low.
I found a guy to love me
but never loved him back
three long trapped years later
I told him to go and pack.
I'm now young free and single
Changed my outer shell
Trying to be more visible
Of the ball I am the bel.
A married man desires me
My boss asked me to dine
An older man is lusting
But none I want as mine.
You are the one I dream of
my heart cries when we part
to wake up beside you
would be my perfect start.
You saw me when ugly
wanted me way back then
But I thought I would lose you
Please notice me again.
I've loved you for a long time
regret my guilt drove choice
Each day I remember
the hurting in your voice.
I'd treat you so much better
put all my trust in you
Ignore your reputation
Like true lovers should do.
One chance to show my loyalty
to proove that i won't bolt
But you no longer want me
and I know its all my fault.