I sit alone as I try to lessen my heavy heart.
Abandoned, full of pain, I sit bewildered
wondering why he thinks its wrong for us to be together and right for us to be apart.
I'll give you all my heart, forgot all the negative, for only the pleasures are remembered.
As our bond slowly begins to fade,
We loose our sense of thought for love.
This is a living nightmare we made neither one of us tried, left it to over our heads above.
An unanswered question remains while we try to force each regret out.
We are left with an insecure view, unclear on how to solve our trial.
Too stubborn to be vulnerable, yet the more we ignore the more vulnerable we become.
How can we repeatedly hurt one another?
Too frightened to make the first call.
too ashamed to admit that we hurt like hell on the inside,
yet you love me as do I.
We haven't forgotten our beginning promises.
Keeping our bond alive and civil for the most part
leaving the rudeness, the pride as we drift of into ecstasy.
Our own paradise we have created.
We self indulge in compliments and past memories.
We loose the turmoil and once again ...once again we are happy,
we are comfortable again,
we are us again.
once remembered we bring up old unresolved arguments.
we are the pair of two lost, hurt, wild kids who cannot live without each other yet cannot live with one another
Both of us are carrying this burden of still being in love yet terrified to trust ourself.
Exchanged hearts refuse to bury our love.
The burning held between us is so memorizing.
We loose control for a moment and at end,
once again we are in a mess,
once again we are coved in pain,
once again we turn to repeat this horrible process
this never ending road that needs to stop.
So I let myself free and I shall never return to your heart.
I will disappear in the mist.
