Reason why

Give me something to live for ,hang to ,dream about,

a tomorrow that shines my life after a long dark night,

Give a reason why i should leave the old me behind,

cover my bruises,heal my wounds and free my mind,

whenever i do that from where I start I return
the same old me in the same old road again.

Tell me luck will change ,,but I wont take it,

My life is a big circle ,it is..I dont fake it,

My fate is not in my hand, I didnt make it,

If I could I would find this cricle and break it,

Give me a reason why I should trust you,her or them,

why should I have faith or where should I get it from,

my bones are hollow they wont carry me further,

my heart is numb and my head: no good either.

It's not that i hate you,I just dont care,
blame me if you want blame me if you dare,
I cant just give you what I never got,
I'm as helpless as you believe it or not.

I wont change myself,I wont pretend I can,

you can turn and walk away or love me as I am,

inperfect,unyeilding ,strong-head you may say,

so scared to feel for you,I had to act this way.

What if your love was not what am looking for?

I'll lock myself deep down and regret it all,

better to hate to hope than hope to hate

the person you loved,the passion you gained.

I have nothing dear now ,I dont need to worry,

I dont expect tomorrow, I am not in a hurry,

don't shake me hard I wont open my eyes,

I wont even feel it ,that part of me dies.

***(this poem was written by my cutie sis=]!!)