Love alone

There was a time when my fear came
I’ve never felt so crushed, when it began
I’ve never imagined that such a thought would be reality
That one day I’d be alone, grasping on to what’s left with me
An empty soul, hurting heart, losing the light
as it drowns in the cold unforgiving depths of my self pity

With our deep affection, I decided that you’d be my only one
I still can’t accept the fact that now you’re gone
How could it be, when our love felt so right?
So here I am, looking for answers above, on a sleepless starry night

When I saw you close to him, tears weighted heavily in my eyes
I realized everything was a blur and fell in a quicksand of true lies
But I have to go on, even if losing you has already taken its toll
It’s really hard to swallow the quote that says “True love when lost, wasn’t love at all”

You even managed to say “Hi” and I stuttered as I choked up a mile
I couldn’t believe all these were your own way of telling me all the while
That your deafening silence says you’re slowly slipping away
That the love I have, wasn’t here to stay

Alone, I’m chasing my thoughts as I stared blankly on the cold floor
The four walls echo my pain until I cry no more
I’m searching inside myself to salvage what’s left in store
Alas, there’s nothing, so I find myself on bended knees knocking on heaven’s door

All the time, I was wondering what I did to deserve all these
I guess it’s my fate, sop I tried to throw it all out on a passing breeze
I feel hanging on the edge, about to fall into the abyss of something unknown
Battling the dark clouds in my head, hopelessly struggling to love alone.