I cry to myself for no reason. i am too weak to even find a reason why i cry. i look in the mirror and don't like what i see. a reflection in which i can't believe that its really me. i turn away in shame and walk away. i don't know what i am running for. there is nothing for me to run to. i have no real purpose, no real true meaning. will i ever find anything? i am not finding anything that suits me. nothing is ever good enough for me. i stare at the ceiling feeling like there's no real truth in believing. i shake my head thinking about nothing. i think too much and its taking up my time. maybe i should just end my suffering. i am not good enough for me. i am not doing any good for you. i am singing this song for no real reason. i just fell down and felt like bursting into this meaningless song. i cry because i am nothing. i am not worth anything. should i say my goodbyes or run into a dead end? i am never quite sure. i do not know how to cope with this. i can't even cope with my singing. just leave me here to stay and cry. i have nothing better to do. in the end it will all come unglued. i am not perfect. i can't find the true me. never will die and live in the heavens.
