I SERIOUSLY NEED HELP

Ok. so heres whats happened. i fell too hard & he broke my heart. i forgave him & we got back together a few days later (typical 14yr olds).. we broke up again and 8 months later we FINALLY got back together the same night i lost my virginity to him. i loved him so much. he was absolutely everything. he broke up with me the day before valentines day this year. since then we've spoken a couple of times, then 3 weekends ago i went to his good mates party got reeeallyy drunk :S and i was crying and begging him to take me back. ive been with other guys but hes still the only one i think about. i dont know what to do. im crazy about him and he has another gf and i really need advice. so please comment me or whatevs.. i neeeeed help :( xxo