I Am Meaningless

I mess everything up. scribble in the blanks, when they should've been left alone. i should just shut up. i am priceless. i am worth none of your time. everything i have ever done is meaningless. i sound like my father when i complain. i keep on hearing him say, "you are worthless. spoiled and selfish. you have no real reason to stay alive"
my life is going no where. this world has no safe place for me to live. but something is holding me back from falling back into fear....