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Oh god, dear god
its back again
i cant handle it now
and i couldn't handle it then

oh god, dear god
don't let it be
Ive hurt so much
please not me

i cant bare to watch
nor can i bare to hear
the sounds of my heart dying
destroying all who are near

i don't want to be this
but I'm trapped behind the glass
the wrong side of the mirror
unable to move past

and i see her standing there
she tells me not to worry
but i know her true intentions
so god, please god, oh hurry

my knuckles turn red
and my tears are running still
I'm banging hoping to get out
but i haven't enough will

I'm too tired, much too tired
and god I'm so ashamed
to see that b i t c h standing there
a ready gun aimed

Ive wasted too much time
no longer can i wait
my words have become meaningless
i have nothing more to create

these words cant move my readers
and god how i can see
that i failed them as well
and they'll soon abandoned me

i didn't mean to act so strong
you all know I'm not
i have nothing, f u c k i n g nothing
I've got no where to run, I'm caught

don't set me free, you know you cant
but god i wish it wasn't true
i wish i had one thing left to live for
how can i explain it to you?

I'm so alone, so damn alone
every second of every day
Ive tried too hard and i give up
i cant live this way