Behind Closed Doors

Behind closed doors, lovers embrace,
no kind kisses left for me.
The love that rained only drizzles now,
with my own person ignored.
When I'm with them, the world seems right,
away I sink and drown.
Blowing secrets in my ear,
Doubt takes reign my plight.
Behind closed doors, left alone,
with fears, with hopes, with dreams;
the What Ifs smuggle into my mind
to tarnish all of life's small quirks.
If I don't know how to escape,
when will the sun shine near?
Apocalypse may sooner come
than that of freedom sweet.